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How to live to grow up in a middle class family in a suburb of Los Angeles in 1966 on the back of a patrol on April 27, 1980 to achieve? Choices and decisions! No! It was not my father or mother because it was not the company, and it was taken. The events that are about to read is true, the best of my memory, the names have been changed to the identity of those who leave, a part of history for the protection they gave.

We moved from West52nd Street in Los Angeles in 1966 shortly after the Watts riots, dear mother wanted a better life for our children, I am the youngest of 4 clock, 2 boys 2 girls, the youngest son of my mother could have, yes yes, I was something special. would "Baby, dear mother to tell you something, she went on to say, dear mother, you know that you're not better than anyone else but this: Just before we moved, Dear Mother called me in our rented house and Said are only as good as any. "My mind was 11, notUnderstand why they told me that although I like that they have lived ever since. It was not until I was in prison at San Quentin at the age of 28 years, I understood why my mother had love, because the lesson of life.

It was my 12th birthday and we were in our new home in Valinda, CA, who live marijuana introduced, our neighbor and a group of his friends were always high in his garage, being curious, I wandered and wondered what they were doing . The neighbor boy was 18or 19 and had his car and what I thought was pretty cool, he said, and I said that I have some, Tommy neighbors on the street, said that surely if the roll. I made my first attempt at a common role, collapsed when I tried to light so that gave me one and I high. My mother and father both smoked and I never even know the smell of marijuana did not know a thing when I went home, went up and paranoid. Throughout my short life in South Central Los Angeles, Inever seen or heard of marijuana, this was the suburbs.

My grades in school have always been above average, even though I only worked out to be average, and I also started sneaking around getting high and start hanging out with kids who think, my grades stayed average and no better. I was molested by a friend of my father at the age of 5, the boy is right when my three brothers were there, and sent them to the store to continue his perversion, this incident waschildren of the same district, who lived next harass me about 3 times before his pages on a different child. No! I never told my mother or my father, I do not know why and I told my father today, and not, as it would not bless him learn.

I began to commit petty crimes in the first level, a child named Snake, (who knows that most people call the snake not to do the right thing?) Introduced me to a boy of about 37, who was a criminal and bought stolenMerci. I broke my first house this year was given a rifle and a couple of things and I thought it was cool, my friend and I share stuff, and I held the gun. Snake and I have a collapsed house four doors up the house where we lived and almost reached when we tried to enter the house next to him and I saw a young man who was paralyzed in that house there and saw us. I do not get caught. My year of high school, I swore to smoke pot every day of the year and has year-round(What a waste). This year my best friend and I were in yellow gold, 1956 Chevy Bel Air-guide, we had to flash the color bar and the music blasting, ganja, as it is legal, when the police moved behind us and we more He drove in a panic around the corner and I was watering the weeds from the plastic bag, but not, and threw it beside the car when it finally stopped. Officers found the weed and took us both to the Sheriff's station. I had to dosome stupid things and my father wanted me strong discipline, but dear mother would intervene, and save myself. At the station, Sheriff neither he nor I have to cop the weeds, our parents were required to take and I knew I was in a good hiding from my father, but no, he was very, very disappointed and I was grounded.

I moved in my senior year of high school intact with my weed smoke dubious record and was curious to know from my High School Guidance CounselorI had 200 credits, and only 150 needed to graduate, so in February of 1972 I completed the half. I could be a story about me as a kind of great athletes, womanizer, but it would be a lie. I was confused, insecure child who had little experience of life and has never had sex with a woman. My friend who was then, the love of my life, Anja, and she loved me, Anja was much, much more mature than me, I could not speak and was afraid ofOut loud. I was the type that matched what the group I was with a young man with no real identity. I was an African-American who grew up in my formative years, with few African-Americans around me, so I had to ethnic hatred, born in Texas Kilgore seen in 1954, moving to California at the age of 1 year. We returned to visit his grandparents every summer until I was 16 and died the father of my father, the son of Dad. I was teased by children blacks in Texas, as the goodCalifornia talk about "Ninja" I would go well on my words in silence, and when he returns in Valinda, said that the group she was with.

In February 1972 my father asked me on Saturday, "Son, what do you do", I was always ready to play with my brother-in-law Charles and some friends of his binoculars, I said something like, I do not know. My father went on to say: "My son, not a grown man to go to sleep when I work and live in my house, so you have 3 ways you can get a job, go! A school or outside, "I decided to go to Marina, my brother-in-law filled my head with stories of the Pac West and the Philippines So, March 30, 1972 (my birthday).'ve Been in the armed forces induction center in Los Angeles taking the oath of service, and then on my way to basic training in San Diego were. The night before some of my friends a party and was told that I was going to serve well That gave a great Oz + bag of grassI am traveling to San Diego went smoke, other recruits in the back of the bus were looking and talking, as I openly smoking pot like a cigarette. I quit smoking on the parade approached before I by one of the recruits, the guys are there to turn in a conversation, so I gave the weeds to someone else and when you assign to our temporary barracks that night with a heavy heart that was flushed down the toilet.

I ended up with the RCP 3, RecruitChief Petty third class, and ran my way through boot camp, I had the guidance of bearer bonds makes my bed and my clothes wrinkles. I was a real spearhead. There was an incident one of the guys on our team said that was gay. One night, Perez comes to my bunk and says: I like you, so I get up and go to the bathroom, Perez followed and we go to the head office of Simon and I go to do with him what had happened to me near an early age. When Perez says, OK Jordan's my turn, Ibecame angry and said a few non-quotable things to him. My thought was, I'm not gay, although I've only had sex with a man, the old, if your pitching is you're not gay rule was in force. I've been through Boot Camp on my finishing my father surprised me to see something finally finish. To my surprise, I was ordered to go back to Lemoore Naval Air Station in Lemoore CA. I was angry and I thought it would not go into the Navy, he returned to school, I enrolled for the Philippines, so I will askthe Pac West, and while home on leave from boot camp my new orders came for me to report on the USS Hancock in the naval base at Subic Bay in the Philippines.

When I arrived at the airport, never been on an airplane before using my carryon bag that had contained, yes you guessed it, $ 2 10 bags of marijuana. I had no idea that someone could check my bag, the grass was at the top, when the guard asked me to open my bag, I just learned that I go to jail. For mySurprise when I was opening the bag, which I immediately put my hand on the grass bag and I know that he has seen, but said nothing, so my first flight from Los Angeles International Airport to Treasure Island near San Francisco, CA. The next day we boarded a military jump in Alaska then in Japan later Clark Air Force Base, and a bus trip to Subic Bay. I had two of my band mates with me for the flight and we were smoking weed at 30,000 feet until one of the hostesses said the other passengerswere killed.

When we arrived at Clark Air Force Base is in the wet I've ever experienced and I was ready to sow wild oats Some had had no idea that in very small 2.5 months is expected to return to the United States, in my direction surprise, honorably discharged, but I could not win again. The Philippines had been a fool for too undisciplined young, I never reported to the USS Hancock and were it not for grace, and the captain of the base I wanted to play football on the basisTeam, I would have given the time in jail and / or a dishonorable discharge. It seems that the captain had his secretary cut orders for me from the USS Hancock and Subic Bay for the transfer and because of some glitch, I thought it was the USS Hancock in Subic Bay Subic Bay and I thought it was on the Hancock, The My mother was looking at the base and the ship to talk to me. I was surprised with a black militant group called the Mau Mau, I was using drugs, cough syrup and heroin, smokingHeroin, in particular, and I have a couple of times long distance. I was caught in a test of egos, with the king, the son of "Papa Jack" an African American ex-Navy man who has a restaurant in Olongapo City, The King and I, during a dispute and the effects were in heard throughout the West Pac. I slept in barracks Cooks getting high every day, but I have my left ear was pierced and commit other crimes involving soldiers from the Provost Marshall until one morning they were attacked, wherehave found a lot of things and other pests. By-the-art theft, leaving the Mau Mau chapter president many things from the rest of us at home. While the Provost Marshall's Office employee who processed me: "Do you want to leave the Navy?" I said yes, my mother is sick and my girlfriend is pregnant, is at the same time. Here's how I got my honorable discharge.

I was in Subic Bay, Clark Air Force Base escorted under armed guard, there was a revolt on the ship wasSeventh Fleet, and they assumed that I was involved in planning it. Nothing could be further from the truth, I could not even plan to breakfast on time, and the only thing I had from my experience in the Philippines with a stomach Jones for heroin and memories of a savage 2.5 months . I went back to Treasure Island for unloading and, when he went with some boys from Oakland to cop some heroin, while outside I saw the movie Super Fly, and I thought that what I amCut out for. When I returned to Los Angeles last I saw myself in the mirror and said, 'Boy, your mother did not recognize you, I was 6' 2 "and weighing about 165 to about 205 since I left three months ago.

I came home a great disappointment to my father, was a new thing that I was able to get high, you know, I do not consider to fool a drug addict, because I was not on heroin, I have a couple of times I came home with Tommy, the guy from the garage of a neighbor when I was 12,and his friend Curtis. I got my first real high mainlining heroin with Curtis, and was so pleased with the 'high, I refused to do it again, I knew I was hooked. I get tired Jr. College, Mt Sac in Walnut, California, had to beat, no discipline, and I found myself committing petty crimes, the cost of the raid, get the job of an insider, my mother and father love their first experience with the police to their house for me. I was able to bargain, a trip to California because of the YouthAuthority, the place I wanted to prove I was tough enough when you consider I had a Mama's Boy was my life, and had been molested, I had to prove to me. In 1973, I moved to California Youth Authority in Norwalk, California Reception Center, where I grow Bunch has been said, or travel through the crib, I had no idea what he was talking, it was Harvey and diffuse the situation and told me that next time someone in the face, I had better be on it. I finallyNelson became a focus for Dewitt. I appeared in penitentiary, where thrive the structure and consequences for both employees and prisoners. I met a young man named Noble was a well-educated people brought up that I had ever met, especially in a prison, she said yes, no thanks, thank you, please, and not to mess with her while she was a fighter very good as well. Edel and I were friends, and I got good education, things thatI learned at home and had a surprise for the years I managed to do a good feeling and says. I finished 2nd fire training class and was able to get what was going Camp Fire. I went to Oak Glen in the San Bernardino Mountains.

While in Oak Glen, I was designated the hook ahead of the fire crew and I team exported to the king of the road two miles to the return of our work, I was in really good shape and was considering college after my release I wanted to jumpUniversity of Alabama coach Bear Bryant and play, the adviser said CYA to me like, "You have a small fish in a big pond or big fish in a small pond. My mother, father and sisters came to see me, while you , my parents never or turned their backs on me, despite what through it. I was suspended in 1974 and until terminated at Cal State Fullerton, and I like a walk on the team, but my lack of discipline always been my fall, I ended up stealing the plans with local restaurantsRob a small casino in Nevada (an inside job), meanwhile, my friend and robbing brothel crime in Orange County and was caught. I called for a renewed commitment to the CYA, and there is extra time, I ended up at the Ventura School for Girls is a CYA facility that had been co-ed. I designed both academically and physically, and was offered by Ventura Jr. College to play for their football team, as we were in college coaches program reasons James wanted a shot. The SuperintendentCYA at the facilities, he said: "No Way Lord, you've had your chance and decided a criminal," which was also correct and I never considered against them, I decided my life.

I got out of CYA to January 10, 1976 I agree with Laura, who had three sisters and his father did not want to be involved with an African-American, I moved back to Valinda with my father and my mother had divorced him after 30 years, my father was a functional alcoholic for life who have worked every day, sometimes two jobs, full and part-timeFood on the table and a roof over their head. He wanted his own time to relax and unwind during the weekend at age 19 my mother was 16 when she got married and my mother told me, they represent 22 their fourth child. I have the opportunity, my high school girlfriend, Anja and wanted to see this year was back together, my heart wanted, but I knew that Anja was not what was needed, so I chose Laura. We had a storm of 3 + years, where she had two abortions of our children, I know, and while Istayed with her, I swore in my heart for her life a living hell, which only served to ruin me. I was on the verge of becoming what I feared, a drug addict without conscience. I have been a decision of the way into the black hole that would have on a wall like I'm in it for a few minutes seem rigid. But, thank God, has never left me, I know it was God, not because I did not care.

I met Frank Cowboy 17:16 and I was 25, 26 to go in my apartment with his brother Ron in FebruaryIn 1980 I was pulling off robberies and always high, and was in sexual perversions, are beginning to consume me have been involved. The Screen, Angel Dust, Fine smoked mixed with the balls of speed, cocaine and heroin. Cowboy Frank and robbing gas stations, so I asked if you are taking penitentiary chances are you have more money. We agreed on a task to do together, we robbed a hardware store and got away and decided to rip a drug dealer, we kill for the guy who was a merchantEmployees of Ralph, who would later be involved as a partner with us crime. Cowboy, Frank and I ripped the cocaine dealer who escaped with their lives, because he refused to be bound and gagged. I went to Nevada, Frank stayed at home to Florida and cowboy. Cowboy has some trouble, we all returned, and when we applied rob Myrvyn's Department Store in Upland California. We hatched a plan that we started on Thursday 24 April 1980, this plan went wrong, but Joey, Frankbrother and I were able to talk our way in every thought we have to save his sister from West Covina, Cowboy Christmas 1979 had provided all the details worked out. I was determined not to be, which was made following last week armed with information during the robbery attempt failed, Frank, Ralph and I in one of the houses of the nursery and lied our way into it.

Everything looked great until the memory of the local law was surroundedThe police, we actually got away, and good police work brought me back to the witness as a clue to the case for our arrest. On Saturday evening the last time I was always somewhere in prison not for the next 22 + years. I fought my case and it looked good, my mother wanted the $ 10K, which was a top lawyer asked that my step dad Jesse had to pay in the past. I declined the offer from my mother, even though I explained my innocence to those wholisten. Eventually I gave up for a hearing had finally found the culprit, took Cowboy, a 5-year contract, a contract of Frank 11 years, Ralph has been granted immunity from prosecution after 17 months in the county jail have been Sentenced to Life + 2 years; Life + 1 year and 11 years and 4 months will be served consecutively. While in San Bernardino County Jail, take I learned some very interesting characters, and I bent over a very low level, and preyed on the weak for a while '. I was a tank on the headB-south and met a man on the bus to go to court one day this guy is a member of a prison gang and was of a different race, I had never allowed ethnicity to determine how people are treated, after all, then my friend was a Mexican-American, two of my partners in crime, where the Anglo-Americans came and I got from a ethnically mixed neighborhood. This guy let's call him Rick toughguy, a member of a gang of White prison, they tell me I have no problems in prison for eachmeet me and gave me some good advice: "Do not tip" that is, a member of a gang in prison. This does not vote, in fact, I said, there were three things that, one would be. Having someone to do something for me to do to get the death penalty. 2. PC, which is going into protective custody. 3. The time in jail.

I came to CDC advisory center in Chino California in September 1981 I was advisor to the prison asked my host handlingAlphabet Group, where I wanted to go, to which I replied, Tehachapi, where he knew there was a university program, the adviser said, that does not happen, you have 104 points, so that allows me the hardest part of the Folsom State Prison and thinking said that the end of the line, along with San Quentin. I arrived in San Quentin State Prison in late October 1981. I quickly discovered three things, a prison was as much dope on the streets. 2. Being a man of few words. 3. Come and stay hard on the penhard. I immediately started to use manipulation to gain an advantage, looking at everything and everyone. A prisoner of age with the nickname "Slow Joe" was the second first observed Stock Offers Pets in A-section was the second tender Mike Vicious animal stock and these were the two guys I talked to more . I was the 3rd plane was heading out the orientation, I was a bit 'longer thanks to the help I thought I stabbed an inmate named Jordin, who had recently had a commissionMember of probation heard Jordin's.

It 'was during his 20 months in San Quentin, I had an epiphany and realized that there was no one but myself to blame me in prison, it was because my mother had refused to grant me a scholarship study at Bishop Amat High School in1969 accept when I got out of Class 9, it was because my father did not intervene and override them, it was because I had dropped the ball, I decided to enter, I decided that Iwould not be doing my best and my best, and now it was my turn, do better, better, accountability, responsibility and try to somehow transform my life. NO! I had not grown increasingly high or the criminal mentality. This is when Jimmy introduced me to an old prisoner in his second life sentence (and was released on parole), for the crime of murder. The transfer previously would have an impact on the rest of my time in prison and should help to shape my story today. I wasrecently said that the elderly, Big Steve prisoner died in prison, well, Big Steve was instrumental in the Lord allows me to kill the old Michael.

I bail on 9 May 2002 and 15 June 2005 on probation, yes, I returned exhausted to 39,094 c-number, which is part of my past. I am a better person after going through it. Of course I would have done things very differently in hindsight, but then I was someone else and not the man I am today. Husband, married firstTime to July 16, 2002, two daughters as my beloved former marriage. I had his health since 1995 and had two total knee replacements in 2000 and are scheduled for a total right hip in May. I've had from my financial success of the probation and financial disaster, coupled with poor health, I have yet to regain faith in God and in the capacity of things.

The dialogue with me in touch with me on my blog Michael "Ground" Jordan, you can interact and that yourOpinions, ask questions and get to know each other. So, my story keep in mind when you are facing, or if you have a child or loved one go through it you know someone in the dirt and the mud was, and she, by the grace of God come through on the winning side.

I was not arrested in April 1980 to 27 have been saved by me!